Last night, I had a bit of a hissy fit... venting a bit of a childish tantrum and saying to TY's cell members via email that I felt like everyone was missing him for 2.5 days when he came up to Syd and I was not missed too much when I left Melb for Syd in Jan... Felt really bad for writing that email. But sometimes you feel like that you know - lonely perhaps. And when you're lonely, you start to think - very negatively...
I guess it's starting to sink in that I've been piled with work and studies, and whenever people are free, they're either too far away or our schedules clash. The week before TY arrived was great though because I managed to meet up with Michelle and Mat, Vijay and Ian, and church friends on separate days. But it's not always like that. And my circumstances with work and uni are pretty bad I guess.
I even thought "how could I change my schedule to fit in time for friends?" and I really don't know how.
See... classes fall Mon, Wed and Thu. And it's not that good to head to work straight after because on Mon and Wed, I usually end classes at 6pm and on-air time is 6pm, so that's quite impossible... And the traffic jam at 6pm is just crazy! I usually get home from uni in about 10 mins, but with the jam, it can take about 40 mins. The traffic can be quite insane.
Then I thought I could probably request the earliest shift, but that starts at 9am at the main office and they have lots of s-t-e-n-o-s (m-e-d-i-a court reporters) to fill the live stuff there. Plus it's BBC and Fox Sports which is really tough to voice... and voice recognition is doable but not THAT accurate for those programs. And they prefer stenos, because they can go on air for longer over there. Those programs don't have any scripts to look at and lots of names to prepare for, so yeah, quite tough.
Anyway, that leaves Thu, where class starts at 9am and usually I have to wake up at 7am to catch the bus. It's just madness trying to drive in at that hour... it takes longer than the bus in fact. Class ends at 12pm so I can work that day. But I've worked a Thursday before, and it was extremely tiring... like you can't do much after work. And when I'm not working, Thursdays are usually group work or libary days.
As for my other free day, Tues - I sometimes have clinical placements (not the official one yet, these are just observations but every fortnight after the placement, you have to churn up a report). The lecturers inform you a week before clinics whether you are going for one. Or if not, this is my study day.
Then Fri, Sat and Sun are work days.
The thing is that most people are usually free Fri, Sat and Sun afternoons and nights, but work starts in the afternoon and there's no time. I feel like I'm rushing off all the time whenever I meet friends. Plus most of my close friends here stay soo far away, it's tough to meet.
But now that it's the 2-week midsem break, I guess I'm feeling more lonely. See, Syd Uni people are having uni still and aren't on a break. I'm seeing my housemate almost every day who drives me a little insane because she's quite picky with certain things - food and the house.
Also, I usually get to see Amanda during uni hours, but she's been sooo busy this week and will be the next. So I quite miss having her around. AND I know I have to do these two assessments due right after this midsem break. Plus I have to really cramp in time for exam studying... can't believe it's already April and exams are in June! I just checked out the exam timetable! It's sooo soon and I'm sooo behind. So yeah, stressing stressing! I can't wait for Sem 1 to be over.
Sem 2 should be easier because I've done a bit of Phonetics and will need to do that again. And also, there's Stats which I have done before too. So it should be pretty OK. Then I have another subject as well, some acoustic subject...
Think I just need prayer... for motivation to study...
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