Feeling stupid...

You know how sometimes you look at your notes and you just go "huh?" "what?" or just shrug? This is me right now trying to comprehend sentences - some obviously quite long and draggy... but others that are really short and I'm still shrugging away. Then you head to class and there's this blur effect. All your classmates seem to know what the lecturer is talking about and you're like "what?" I mean, it's all interesting, the whole content, but when you have deep focus on the terminology, it can seriously drive you nuts. I feel as you get older, your memory capacity just loses it or something - you just don't memorise as fast as you'd like, or comprehend as well as you like or how hard you try, things just don't make sense. Yep, you got me... I am feeling a little frustrated just trying to read what my notes say. And I guess it's hitting me because I haven't done a report in sooo long. If only I can write down so quickly and easily like how I think or how I blog, that'd be great. Or even working the way I do at my workplace and knowing everything - if only I can apply that with this report, I'd ace it.

But right now, I feel as though my brain needs a reboot or extra RAM... Sigh...

It's just stress... and I have this report due on Tuesday next week.
And this week, I'm jam-packed -
Mon, classes
Tues, work
Wed, classes
Thu, classes and an outing with church friends (which I don't need to go and can stay back and do the report, but I haven't really had much of a relaxed day or a social life and I desperately need one here in Syd)
Fri, work
Sat, work
Sun, work

Then, the following week, I am actually filling extra shifts -
Mon, work
Tues, work, and report due
Wed, class
Thur, class and heading back to Melb till Mon morning...